A Dedication to the Clone of Judas

By Kathy Nisley
Written about and given to her Psychiatrist at the Madison Center

I loathe the lips of saintly men
who wear a cheap disguise-
Who mask compassion on their face
while deceit screams from their eyes.
I detest their egocentric attitudes-
cringe at their arrogance,
Despise their contradictory ways
That'll betray you at a glance.
'Trust me,' and 'I want to help!'
are the lies they speak to me.
But the message they deliver,
is only meant to be ...
a crown of thorns-
a kiss of death-
'to entice you with their charm ...
a seductive trick -
a manipulative tactic-
that is sure to do you harm.
To win your trust and faith in them,
so they can slap me in the face,
And multiply the horrors
that this lifetime won't erase.
But they'll paint that pretty picture
as they deceive you
with their smiles ...
but sooner or later the truth
is known-
as they compound
your pain and trails.
I abhor their pompous little styles,
detest their little games ...
I'm violated by their cruelty
as they undermine the pain.
The honesty they want from me
is merely a ticket to more hell ...
that already been delivered -
so I've learned my lesson well.
So threaten me with whips
and chains -
Cuff me to a wall -
But the wall that I've now
built -
is guaranteed to never fall.
There are no tactics man can use
to restore my faith in them.
So my prognosis will just remain -
A battle they'll never win.
I'll close this with some wisdom,
Although my life has been destroyed.
Maybe it will spare others -
from the fraud that you employ ...
"Relationships are built on trust,
which is NOT something that is learned.
You can demand, insist,
til you are blue-
but trust is ALWAYS earned.
And as we recall promises,
and all the lies that I
have heard ...
There's a recollection that a man
is only as good
as is ...
his word.

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A Survivor of the Madison Center in Indiana

MENTAL HEALTH CENTER'S PSYCHIATRIC DIAGNOSIS PROVEN WRONG BY BRAIN TUMOR In 1996, mother-of-five Kathy Nisley of Mishawaka, Indiana, sought treatment for depression at Madison Center, a psychiatric facility in South Bend, Indiana. From June 1996 to October 2003, she was labeled with "severe depression," then "bipolar," then finally "borderline personality disorder." Kathy was given psychotropic drugs in increasing doses and combinations that caused her to become psychotic. She ended up being hospitalized five times in a psychiatric ward. Her family witnessed her psychiatric drug-induced psychosis, suicide attempts and self-mutilation while under the influence of these drugs. Inspite of her report that she was no longer suicidal or self mutilating after she weaned herself the drugs, she was threatened with hospitalization for non compliance of treatment if she didn't take the medication. In 2001, she started taking the prescriptions, but not filling them and not reporting that she was non-compliant. The suicidal ideations and self mutilation ceased, although the depression remained severe. In November 2004, Kathy experienced a grand mal seizure. A few days later, a neurosurgeon removed a tennis ball-sized meningioma (tumor) from her left frontal lobe. [pic1 , pic2] Her depression subsequently disappeared. Her surgeon estimated it to have been growing in her skull for between 10 and 15 years. Her husband demanded proof from the psychiatrists that she was ever mentally ill. He was told that they didn’t have any proof they could only go by her symptoms. He was dismissed as being in denial in spite of the fact that they were married for 20 years without incident.

Kathy has since fully recovered and is enjoying life with her husband and family. She is now a proud grandmother of three.

A Similar Article Was Published By The Citizens Commission on Human Rights International. On the psychcrime.org click on the article Misdiagnosis is Malpractice to locate the original article.

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